Blog is dead, again. I think my diary is the place to where I pour my feelings to instead of my blog. Im so sorry!

To all those random ppl out there who just stumbled on my blog link (well. nbdy reads it anyways), cherish your frens and lurv them. Remember the times you all spent together, just in case it ends one day. Friendship may die, but memories won't; they'll stay with you forever.

Which is why I kept a diary. Yesterday was my diary's (her name is sky) birthday. 1 month. I flip through the pages and saw everything - from how happy i was, to excited, to sad, to angry, to lame, to cheerful again. It's really happy to see all the things that happened to you - things that seem so great then dun seem so impt now. Esp. the sad stuff, well. You'll get over it. And for the happy times, you laugh.

I really want to see what would happen 10 years from now, when i flip my diary open. What would I feel? How would I think? Did I live my life the way I wanted? Was I satisfied?

I hope my answer then would be "yes", and that all the ppl mentioned in my diary would still stay in contact with me. If they dun, probably... Im going to find them:D

One of my bestest frens just sent me a very long message in reply to the one I sent her.

"why are you so distant nowadays?"

Hmm. That definitely set me thinking. I was thrown aback by those words, I just stunned. Beacuse I can't give an answer. I can't reply. I thought i was the luckiest girl to have friends like you, really.

Im touched. I really dun know what is between us nowadays. We're so cold, till its scary. I feel scared, incomplete and insecure. I know she knows I feel this way, and I know she does too. So why is this happening?

I dunno. I rlly hope things will happen to the way it is before. It will, wouldn't it?

Im still silently hoping. You are too, aren't you?